Hello, my dear diary. Today is 21st of october, 2007 and i've never thought that some Kind of Bad stuff will happen to me in one year. I actually never thought that model weightloss will cause such big problems to me such as anorexia plus bulimia hybrid, Depression and suicidal thoughts. Everyday before i got into this Hospital for Psychos i was thinking that "im fine", i just "need to loose some weight because im sick of those 2-3 kilos that i gained". I really thought that im able to fight it by myself with no help from other people. From people who loved me the way i am, was and will be . And now im imprissoned in "diet and Depression" jail i've made by myself. Oh God, please help me to stay strong!