На большее не хватило
I don't think that the most horrible thing for
a man in the world is death as many think. The most horrible thing for a man in
the world is «unlife». When you feel, see and hear much sharper. When you start
to envy the dead and terminally ill people. When you begin to understand that
the void is much more meaningful and important in the world than yourself. That
even the dust is a million times better than you. When you're happy, but you do
not feel this happiness, and you don`t want it. When even the dearest person to you,
Mom, can`t you understand. When you know that just torturing their loved ones,
and you can not do anything, because no one will assume the role of God and did
not create a miracle that will help you. When you start to look for your death,
but it does not come, and besides, you know, that exist in this
"non-life" will be catastrophic for a long time.When you start to
wish that you have this "imaginary future". This is the most horrible think